I was looking at some porn the other day and I thought to myself, “I think this is relieving my suffering through some transitory pleasure, but it’s really making me suffer more.”
All addictions are the same. Superficially all addictions are about some transitory pleasure, but in reality they are about pain. All addictions involve much more pain than pleasure, and the pain is what addicts want.
It is self-inflicted, self-controlled pain though which substitutes for uncontrollable pain inflicted from the outside. People who cut themselves report a feeling of relief.
There has to be a better way to cope with outside pain and the mental chaos and anxiety it creates.